gross stomach, far from fabulous

this weekend was fun. fri i went to christina & lonnie's house for a bbq. supa fun. i love having family so close. sat. i did kickboxing, a shift at tasti d lite, a prarie home companion & the local with kindel. then sunday i slept more than i have in months. it was storming outside so i snoozed on the couch all day-until it was time to go to loca luna & Chicago with kindel & theresa. fun fun. it would have been even more fun if i spent the day makin' out on the couch and then falling asleep, but we take what we can get, i guess.

i feel really crappy today. the weather is still yucky (though we do need the rain) and my stomach is unhappy with me for some reason . i don't know what i did to it but it is determined to get everything out one way or another. eww.

the postcard above is from postsecret. if you do not already visit this site you should start!!! this card cracked my heart a little. a part of me hoped jared would show up this weekend. it would at least be a small movement towards a change within him. a larger part of me (maybe my ars? ;) ) was relieved he didn't. it's just hard to completely let go, whenever i think i have i find myself hoping he'll be at my door when i get home. but i know that wouldn't be good, and even if it was good at first, it wouldn't be that way for long. sigh. i wish someone would just come along and show me what it's like to be treated as well as i deserve, as well as i would treat them.
top 5 thoughts about changing jobs
1. good oportunity for me
2. i'll miss most of my co-workers immensly.
3. having a job that challenges me.
4. ugh, i hate driving
5. what will people be like at GS?

blogtacular

so this weekend in pride fest in atlanta. rainbows have descended upon the city and everyone says "happy pride!" i think it's super fun. i don't know if i'll make it over to midtown for the festivities. they're the part of me that thinks it's going to be so much fun and the other part that thinks the parking etc is not going to be worth the headache! i need to figure out what time the parade starts, though i'll probably be working then anway. i'm working at tasti d's sat 11-4. so come visit if you're in the l5p area!

jared has not called/contacted me again. and i've been really relieved about it. i'm supposed to meet up with a guy from match.com this weekend. we're both super busy so we've been sporatically emailing for a month or so but just haven't been able to get together. that should be fun if it happens. ALSO i asked out the guy across the hall (via email). we talk every now and then and since next week will be my last here i figured i'd go ahead and make it happen! he said yes and asked what was good for me, i emailed him back and am waiting on a reply. we'll see if it works out. he could be flakey. i just feel impatient. i mean let's try this out and decide if it's good or not and move on either way. it's all the in between biz-nas i could do without. all the same, i'd like to meet these two and see what there is to see.

i'm so excited that i'm home this weekend! i've been out of town so much that i just really need to be in my place.

top 5 about this weekend:
1. tasti-d-lite tips?
2. Chicago with Theresa
3. naps on the couch with honey!
4. excited for the Ross family invasion sunday-wednesday
5. possible boy potential

well bloggers, it's pretty much official. (i haven't recieved the written offer) i have verbally accepted a job at Girl Scouts! i'm excited, a little nervous. there's a lot of driving involved-to recruit people, but i'll have to really get aggressive with the library's books on cd collection. i was hoping for a pay raise, but it didn't happen. they assure me that they do annual salary reviews and typically give raises, so i guess i'll just hold out until then. i'll be making the same thing i make now though, professionally it's a step up. so, hooray!

who's fabulous? you readers, that's who!

my apologies bloggers, i have been slacking on my blogging responsibilities. i have been uber busy! busy doing what you may ask, why i'll tell you!

bonnaroo was great! i saw robert randolph and the family band, bonnie raitt made my bonnaroo, the motet, g love & special sauce, the wood brothers, robinella, ben folds, tom petty (who brought out stevie nicks!), radiohead, beck, clap your hands say yeah, rusted root, bela fleck and the flecktones, matisyahu, and i think that's it. whew. we had an awesome time, the highlights being the 18in dbl sided dildo, brian in general, marc's laugh and general charm, charging a toll, morning yoga, kel's "bonnaroo is a circle of safety" comment, pj, ozea, sarah, jef, kate, dan, harper, being with mtv2, sunshine, awesome tan, amazing dancing and so much more that i'm sure i'll think of again. though i had a wonderful time, i'm waiting for the line up before i say i'll go again, i was just tired of being so dirty with no hope of being clean! however i can't imagine missing out on the time with marc, kel and brian. it's just too good to miss!

so, we got from bonnaroo on monday morning (1am) and i got up for work the next morning, then went to pick up the kitten and drop off the camping gear in PTC. tuesday i went to bootcamp

there has been some jared drama. not really drama, well maybe. as you may or may not know i stopped speaking to jared when he demonstrated-yet again-that i am not a priority. well, so he sent an email and a few texts yesterday, and we ended up talking. the most shocking thing i learned was that he had started making payments on an engagement ring. so that was interesting, though to him i didn't spend too much time on it. i kinda breezed by that mention. and i don't know what to do, readers. i feel like i've been happier in these past two months than i've been in a long time, and though most of it has to do with an attitude change via bootcamp, there has to be some of it attributed to not being with him. at the same time, he's had some things happen in these two months that have changed him as well. could we have changed in the right way? or is this something that should not be revisited. also, i already feel a little haze over me from dealing with it at all. clearly, not a good sign. but then i'm always a little funkier when i haven't worked out yet. i dunno. i'm feeling very weary of the whole thing. honestly, i think i would rather not be talking to him, i think i still need time. i feel like i was just getting this solid foundation under me of this new person i'm becoming, someone i like a lot and he kind of offsets that. hmmm. i guess that's the answer. i just wish this magical person i'm supposed to be with would freakin' show up. ok. thanks for listening, i appreciate comments, enjoy the pics!

oh, oh. i also bonnie raitt last night at chastain. she was amazing (again!). when she sang "i can't make you love me" she started crying. i think it's amazing she is still so touched by that song. it is uber emotional. she and keb mo' (check him out!) sang "angel in montgomery" it was so beautiful, it made me feel like my heart was going to explode. i don't think i've been touched like that in a long time.

yesterday was hectic!, and, of course, fabulous

so yesterday i did all of my extracirricular activities, bootcamp, 5:30, work 8-5:30, belly dancing 6:30, tasti d lite 7:40-11! whew! i am tired today! usually tuesday would be a great day for me to work because i don't have bootcamp wed mornings. but we did this morning! last night was my first shift at tasti d lite! it was pretty fun. i think i did well. i hope i closed well, cleaned the machines properly and all that biz. people were pretty friendly, and i had about 15 customers and made 11 bucks in tips! i think that's pretty good considering i'm makin' cones! i tired to be as genuinely cheerful as possible, which was quite easy, i mean, it's icecream! icecream that won't make you fat. it sells itself as far as i'm concerned. i just want everyone to have a pleasant and fun ice cream experience. :)

belly dancing has gotten to be super fun! i wish we had a recital of some sort. i'm a little annoyed because i just checked the schedule and we have it on July 4th. that's ridiculous. redonkulous even. no one is going to show up to that mess on 6:30 on the 4th of july. puh-lease.

bonnaroo is tomorrow!!! i can't believe it's "that time again." i'm psyched. i talked to everyone we're going with today, everyone was checking in for the schedule. oh and i forgot to mention that i'm going to get my vaccum tomorrow!!! except, i'm leaving and won't be able to use it until monday. BOOOOO! and now i have to clean my place since the b-roo kids will be crashing there sunday night!
top 5 reasons i'll be missing blog days
1. i'll be rockin' in the freeworld
2. i'll be snoozin' in my tent
3. i'll be playing wwf go fish (take it to the RING!!!)
4. i won't be sober
5. i'll be donin' a little dance, makin' a little love
smooches readers! i'm off to b-roo!

opportunities galore: fabulous!

well, i don't want to jinx anything. it's not as though i've gotten offers for anything, it's just that i realized how many things out there that i'm interested in that are a possibility for me! i found a new job posting today that i'm very interested in, talked to the owner of operation bootcamp about working for her, and had a conversation with the woman that interviewed me at girl scouts that made me think they were still interested. so, things are going well.

so, i know it may seem ridiculous to credit bootcamp with so much but it's really helped me realize what i'm good at and what i like doing. i have such a chip on my shoulder about my current position that i forgot that there are things i'm really good at, and that other people percieve me as smart and capable. i was in more of a slump then i realized. today was my first day as an instructor and it was super fun. i didn't get as good of a workout but i know other days will be better. we had 2 pukers! bootcamp is hardcore!

top five things i didn't realize until i became an instructor:
1. people get grumpy and go to "the dark place" very quickly.
2. instructors get free coffee after workouts!!!
3. they have an awesome commraderie
4. they are fun-ny
5. and diverse, we have an immigration special agent and the head pastry chef at the ritz!

fabulous weekend.

well, i had written a blog for friday, but then when i attempted to post it, it got lost in the internet somewhere. so, i'll update ya! thursday was my girl scout interview, it went well. i feel good about how i represented myself. i didn't fumble my words or anything. i prepared for it by writing out my answers to the "top 20 asked interview questions." i also brought along some of my own questions, which i think they appreciated. so, they'll let me know by friday. i'm hoping for earlier because i'll be at bonnaroo on thursday!!! whoo hooo!

on friday, i went up to dc to hang with kelly and marla. the flight was soooo easy. i fly stand by a lot and my flights were good to go. such a relief. kel and i proceeded to get lost on the way home from the airport, on the way to marla's, h&m, mason jennings & home! so we saw a lot of areas of dc . . . that we'll never be able to find again. saturday was interesting. we woke up after crashing on marla's couch (when asked if i wanted to get into some pjs i said "i'm too tired to move.") then went to tryst, h&m and then to see the movie cars. it was fun! after that we realized we wouldn't have enough time to go home and change (brush our teeth, shower) so we took a b-roo bath in the car (read:babywipes). then we headed to see "the main event!" MASON JENNINGS. super fun. we were so close! i got some great pictures. sunday we got up and went to the airport! a quick, but good, trip.
bonaroo!
1. seeing pj, marc, ozea, brian, dan & kel (woa, kel we look like pimps!)
2. music music music
3. hangin' in the tents!
4. not showering
5. other . . . stuuuuufff.

some fab, some not so fab

so, as my earlier post stated, i am losing my job. the job search hasn't been bad. i'm really excited about a job with girl scouts. i have an interview tomorrow (which is the fabulous part). the not so fabulous part, getting this office closed up will fall primairly on me. which means i have to work with a person from our other office who makes me miserable. she's just awful. and what's crazy is that she calls me and speaks to me like everyone isn't trying to leave asap. including me! honestly, the only reason i would be trying to get out sooner rather than later is having to deal with her. it's been tolerable before because she was a boss in my company. now i see no reason to put up with that garbage (aside from protecting my co-workers from the task!). we'll see. . .

we work across the hall from an engineering company full of dudes. well, yesterday one of them caught me in the elevator lobby and we ended up talking for 20-30 minutes. he asked if we could continue the conversation later, i was busy last night but said yeah for another time. well, we exchanged emails earlier in the conversation (he plays kickball and i wanted in!-lucky!) so we emailed back and forth a couple of times yesterday but he hasn't sent anything today. i'm disappointed. but who knows, maybe he's uber busy. (i don't really believe this, if someone wants to talk to you they find the time. puh-lease). sigh

top 5 reasons i'm tired
1. said boss
2. talking with kate until 12 (crazy late for the jojo)
3. bootcamp sprints!
4. job search
5. client in office, smile!

losing your job? not fabulous.

yes it's true blog-readers. in 2 months i will be unemployed. merkledomain is closing their atlanta office and therefore we're all losing our jobs. so, the job hunt begins. i have never really done an all out job search before. i've always found jobs through other people. i'm trying to test that theory by telling everyone i know about my job status. my fellow bootcampers are quite encouraging! i am looking for a job in the nonprofit sector. i applied to one at the local girl scout council that seems to be the perfect fit. we'll see, the salary is not listed though they do require a degree so that implies a little more. sigh. i'm not worried yet, but as i am looking through idealist and opportunitynocs (both nonprofit job sites) i am starting to get a better picture of the task ahead of me. send good vibes! i need um'! oh, and send job opportunities.

in other news. i attended my cousin's wedding in jacksonville this past weekend. it was fun. i hadn' seen my cousin Lynn in years and it's amazing how much she's grown up. she has her lipped pierced and i wish she didn't. i mean i love piercings, but it really does look better when she doesn't have it in.

i also had a very specific dream about honey (my cat) being able to drive. it was crazy. i kept telling her she wasn't allowed to do that but then also thinking "but hey she's pretty good." i can still see her little paws on the steering wheel and she would look both ways. she was very alert. it was actually pretty sweet.

top 5 things in an ideal job:
1. an organization that is contributing to society in a positive way
2. serves women
3. casual work wear
4. good salary (35k+)
5. great peeps!

jojo gets tasti!

so, anyone who knows me knows i love ice cream. and frozen treats in general. well, yesterday i was given the opportunity to fulfill one of my childhood dreams: working in an ice cream shop at tasti d lite! what's great is tasti d lite is low in calories and fat and is all natural!!! i'll only be working a few nights a week, for fun really. it's only .5 miles from my house so i'm also looking forward to interacting with my community. i'm a little concerned with my consumption of said tasti de lite. i have never gotten sick of any sweet. i've never gotten to the point where i'd eaten so much of it i didn't want anymore. lucky for me it is lower in calories and fat, becasue i would definately bulk up quickly. as my dad pointed out "you're going to be putting on what you took off in the morning!" sadly, there is probably some truth to that. all the same, i am excited to start saying "cone or cup?"

i am sore today. we usually don't work out on wed. morning, so i sign up for kickboxing that night. but since we didn't work out on monday we did wed. morning, i didn't want to flake on the class so i went to that too, then we did the long run this morning (usually around 6 miles). i also got a blister in my arch from the run. weird. anyway, my hugely buff shoulders are hugely sore. tomorrow i think we're going to play soccer though. they add in a few extra balls so we're all always moving, it should be pretty fun.

i'm also excited that i bought dixie chicks tickets this morning! woo hoo! it should be an awesome show.

top 5
1. i'm really noticing a difference in my arms and shoulders
2. book club tonight!!!
3. uh, tasti d lite job
4. still pumped about being an bc instructor!
5. i ran a BUNCH today